Saturday, April 9

random

perry stacking the zoo collection on her face. she was really entertained by this. i thought it was pretty cute myself. she loves to ham it up in all things. my mister mace. til the end of time, his eyes will just captivate me. they are big round deep almonds. i just love them. and he is a major eye speaker. he is always communicating with his gorgeous peepers. the kids are spending lots of time outdoors with their scooters, bikes, etc. case in point right?

Sunday, March 27

Over Dosing

This was a weekend, like a perfect storm or something, where everything lined up insanely. This time it all revolved around church. I am so glad it's Monday tomorrow. We started Friday afternoon with a trip to San Antonio for Carlos and I to attend the temple. All the kids were great in the car for there and back. They got to hang with Auntie Noel while we were in the temple. Not bad. Saturday morning brought a double baptism for two of Cora's friends. Cora, Cyrus, and I went along to show our support. Not bad yet. While at the baptism the missionaries call. Of course, I had signed up to feed them that night. I swear I have the worst karma with feeding those boys. It's always when we are stupid busy with something. I start to get a wee bit anxious now. I complain to Carlos when I get home (3 hours later) that this weekend would be hilarious if our home teachers visit us, he needs to give a blessing to someone, and the kids have a talk to give in Primary. His eyes light up. No kidding, while I was gone, Primary called to remind us that Cristian had a talk to give! Heavy sigh. I go about the afternoon. That night I prepare my lesson for Perry's class. I was subbing for a friend. It's on the Holy Ghost. Deep breathes, Jen. Sunday morning Carlos is gone by 6 a.m for his church meetings. I arrive 30 minutes late to sacrament with the kids. Typical. 9 a.m - 5 kids - my sleep schedule = perpectual tardiness. Carlos stays after church for more church work to complete. I get stuff settled at home (somewhat). Carlos leaves again at 7 p.m. for more church meetings. Maybe it wouldn't have been so intense for me, but this was the weekend we were getting the house prepped to put back on the market. Shopping, cleaning, planting, organizing, etc. Thank goodness Carlos' dad stopped by unexpectedly and helped out for several hours on Saturday. Paco and I are tuckered out! Monday brings the realtor, the house will be photographed and put online officially. And then my hubby and I are going out to lunch. It's our 13th anniversary!! Yippee!

Wednesday, March 23

the name game

so we had a long drive back from georgia. i'd love to say we got tons of pictures of the vacation, but i actually took not one. typical of me.

the kids were just angels for the 18 hours of driving. i like this older kid thing sometimes.

cora and perry at one point entertained themselves with their coloring books and crayons. cora announced that she'd like to name all her kids after colors. i told her i loved this idea.

she started with her list: teal for a girl, although i like it more for a boy myself. then was fuchsia for a girl, scarlet of course, wisteria, and possibly grey.

mason piped up and announced that he liked cobalt for a boy. how cute is that?! i mean it actually works.

i promoted azure for a boy or girl but there really weren't any takers. i love these sorts of conversations with my babies. they are such bright little munchkins.

i'm intensely curious to see if any of these names will stick.

Thursday, February 10

Little Toot

Here is Cyrus with his new haircut. We cut off about 5 inches everywhere. He instantly went from Polynesian baby to Mexican baby in just a haircut!
He is what I call ridiculously handsome. He isn't cute, just handsome, like a man. He reminds me a lot of Carlos. Stocky, solid with a butt-chin.

Love his glossy black hair and liquid black eyes.

A happy baby in the Cruz home. Us Cruz people take good care of our foster kiddos while they are with us. It is really an honor for each of us to do it.




I Ran!!

Bionic Noel is doing another sprint marathon. She asked if Carlos & I wanted to join her. It's in May, this was December, it seemed so doable. I dunno if Carlos is still "in" or not, but I've started my training.

I have zero desire to finish with any kind of respectable time in this thing. My only concern is to finish. As such, I thought I'd push myself and at least TRY to run. So I ran a 1/2 mile at the gym the other day. It wasn't bad. I didn't pee which was fab-u-lous and didn't have a heart attack (another perk). I don't even care if I don't run the 3 miles, just so I do some of it and complete the race.

If I ever get skinny and become addicted to sprints (which I could actually see happening, really) I'll worry about improving my times. But I am just excited to be training again and to do this with Noel. Granted, she'll have finished, gotten a pedicure, showered, put in an 8 hour shift at work, and washed my car when I cross the finish line but it's all good right?!

Wish me luck!!

Tuesday, January 4

Tender Mercies

Mason and I were talking about "mommie Ana" the other day. I make it a point to bring her up quite often to him. He remembers quite a bit of life with her and I feel that a lot of his feelings about himself have resulted from his time with her. I want normalize his life as much as possible and let him know that he can talk to us about anything in regards to her, us, adoption, etc.

I was commenting on how gorgeous of a child I think he is. I pointed out that his gets his hair and eye color from Ana. He looked at me aburptly and said, "No, I don't." I told him that he does. He has lighter skin like her and gorgeous brown eyes and hair like her. He denied it again with just as much fervor.

I asked if he remembered what Ana looked liked. And he replied, "Yes, she had yellow hair but I don't have yellow hair like her." I asked what color her eyes were. "They are blue like yours mom."

I was stunned. My first thought was, "Oh my gosh, I need to get a picture of Ana. He is forgetting what she looks like. He can't forget where he has come from!"

And then I was like, "Wait a minute. He thinks I am his mom. He is remembering only me as the face, the hair, the eyes that have loved him." Call me selfish (because I am VERY selfish, a lot) but for now, I am going to just marinate in the sweetness that I am his pulse to his world.

Thank you Macey-baby. I LOVE being your mommie, forever.

meeting cyrus

oops, we did it again! this fostering thing is a great system of supply & demand. so... meet cyrus. he is 8 months old and is gradually adjusting to our family. you can't really tell but, he's a quarter african-american and the rest hispanic.
he's nice and chubby - just how jen likes 'em. we got a call sunday afternoon after having him for only 2 weeks and guess what? his mother signed away her parental rights making him available for adoption! how cow, an adoption dream.
carlos and i are teetering right now. i guess its all happened so fast and we want to make sure that this is the right choice for every person involved in our home and family. we'll definitely keep you all posted.
once again though i am amazed, humbled, and grateful for this institution of adoption. i just don't know how to articulate how wonderful and amazing it is. having carried and birthed children of my own and then adopting pear and mace there are definite differences (mostly stretch marks) but in some ways adoption is more magical and precious to me. i guess because i am being given another person's child. ever so humbling and the ultimate gift ever. hopefully i'll be able to articulate how i feel about it all some day. but honestly, i really think every decent, married couple should adopt. it is just magical.



Saturday, January 1

account-a-cute-a-bee

Cora had dish duty and didn't know where the mixing bowl went. I'm loving her note to dad!

this little cutie had left the vance home after a year with them in foster care. little desi is a pistol and a half. she was such a joy to be around. i know she won't stay with her parents permanently. she'll be bounced around again. it's a very imperfect system but she was loved and safe for a whole year of her life. and that was a blessing.

candy cane lane

so i've got this friend...we'll call her diane carpenter to protect her identity. she and i have a mutual friend who we'll call amy lewis. i stopped by amy's house one day in december and noticed her driveway cutely decorated with candy canes. my eyes followed the festive line of red and white and then stopped. the last 3 candy canes were totally destroyed. the line was ruined. pieces of plastic and wood were scattered about. i asked amy, "what the *h* amy?!" she sweetly told me that diane ran them over the other day with her car. i saw an opportunity folks. so i snipped off the killed canes, boxed them up all purdy-like, and gave the gift to diane stating that it "was from my heart".
a few nights later we get a doorbell ditch in the evening. i find broken candy canes, the remainder of amy's dead cane lane and....

this lovely message written in festive candy cane font. i do so enjoy funny friends. thanks amy and diane for the good laugh.



Sunday, December 26

calorie swap

pruetts introduced us to the raw tortillas from costco. freak'n addictive and just so yummy. i found them the other day. i hate you pruetts for the introduction. it'll be a toxic relationship.
to return the favor...i thought i'd introduce you to the peanut butter snicker square (also available at cost co). i hope it proves to be lethal for your waistline davey.
love you both.

Princess & the Frog


girl movie night. carlos took the boys to a hockey game so we girlified the house. princess and the frog was the movie.
in attendance where cora, perry, desi, kaira, brynlee, emily, lena, madison, natalie, and savannah. it was a lovely evening. most were captivated.
perry and cora even made cute invitations to invite their friends over with. they had a great time cutting and coloring. carlos and i love how wonky perry's invites looked - so cute!





girlie runner

so i saw this idea on a blog and just fell in love with it. a table runner made out of doilies. i enlisted the help of shay and mama because they are crazy thrifters and knew their areas of the country are awesome for other people's crap. this squarish one is my favorite and they found it somewhere in central california.
i went to visit shay in cali (while mama was there) and we hit a consignment shop. i happened to speak with the owner about the project i was working on. she had several doilies throughout the shop to display things on. she ran around the store, collected them all, and gave me about 8 for ten bucks. they were all different shapes, sizes and colors.
now you know my fancy, white trash crafting skills. i tied each doilie together with waxed dental floss. SOOOOO much better than thread because it was sort of stiff and easy to work with. sometimes i am crafting genius.
p.s. yes, my house is always this clean and put together. if you know me, then you know how i roll.



Tuesday, December 21

simple addition

1 package of stickers + 1 4-year old daughter + 1 large canvas =
solution: stickie daddy


Besties

this is a weird looking picture of the girls. lena looks like she's 3 years old and cora looks like a freak giant. these two are kinda besties. they are inseparable at school despite lourdes best efforts to keep them apart. ha, ha! they are both sweet, good girls. but don't underestimate their power for evil. i'm quite sure they will "cover" for each other throughout their whole adolescents.

Monday, December 20

sunshine girl - your smile makes everyone smile too - you've got a great mug
p.s. i love your chocolate skin

oh, my little divas...how i love you both. perry, you shook your bootie tonite like a hormone-ridden teen at a dance club. i laughed so hard. it felt wonderful. you've got a black gene fo' sho'. cora, you are always so feminine and proper. you want to always be pretty and girlie. i adore that about you. you both are super fun to have around. and you aren't stinky and gross like your brothers. thank you.

Tuesday, December 14

Fire Days

look at this darling mug! perry had a field trip at school. amusing because the fire station is like an 1/8 of a mile from her school but they still had to charter a school bus to take them there. perry was in her element.
the firemen gave the kids the grand tour. they climbed all over their truck and got to handle some tools or weapons as perry referred to them. i have not so secret crushes on all firemen. it's pretty ridiculous and intense. carlos wanted to be a firemen when he was younger. um, he would be SO HOT in firemen gear.
the class got to destroy the fire stations work out room.
the men put on their breathing gear and let the kids try them out. the mask creates a powerful suction to the face obviously. the breathing is quite loud and a little freaky to hear.
perry was braver than brave of course. some of my kids are just fearless. is it fearless or just uninhibited? not sure really.
class shot. dear firemen, i really do love you. don't tell my hubs.






Blue Bell Creamery

Betcha didn't know that I worked at the BYU Creamery for 2 years in college. It was my BEST college job. So fun watching ice cream, cheese, whey, cottage cheese, etc. being made. And all the employees were the funnest group to work with.
I think that's why I wanted to take my chillwrens to the Blue Bell one. It was pretty lame though. Our tour guide blew through our tour. Fortunately, I knew what most of the machines did so I gave the chillwrens my own tour.
It felt a little willie-wonkaish. No indoor photography and some top secret signs posted here and there. Really? It's just ice cream. We aren't launching nuclear warheads.
Our tokens to begin our tour. I wanted to keep them as souvenirs. No deal though.
The tower of ice cream power. We got to sample several flavors. Cristian loved Snickerdoodle. I loved Pumpkin Spiced Praline (or something like that).
The chillwrens posing with the milk maid. It was a fun little field trip for the kiddies and mommie.






Thursday, November 18

SAY WHAT?!?

This one left me laughing.

The kids are in various stages of preparing for bed. Perry was using the potty and Cora had on her jammies and was brushing her hair with her Little Mermaid brush.

Cora waltzes into my room, dramatically brushing her hair and announces, "She scares me."

"She scares you?! Who scares you?"

"Perry. She goes to the bathroom and then leaves without washing her hands. Disgusting. So I tell her to go wash. So now she went back in there and is washing her hands!" (It was actually a long run-on sentence from her.)

"Um, I see," I respond vaguely.

"Mom, she is just disgusting - in an unlady-like way!"

THAT would be what I'm deal'n with here folks!